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WARNING: THIS IS NOT GOING TO BE AN EASY BREAZE OPTIMISTIC POST. IT WILL BE UGLY AND IT WILL BE BRUTAL!! So, IF you plan on bitching to me about it later, then don't even wast your time reading this.
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So lately some things have happened to make me realize that I am unappreciated and that I am far to nice of a person… we'll things are about to change.
I am not some 120 lb, blond hair, blue eyed, tan skinny girl. I am a voluptuous plus sized girl and by no means am I here to impress anyone. I could defiantly afford to loose a few pounds (captain obvious) but no matter what I will still be a larger framed girl and I am okay with that. I don't spend 10 hours in front of the mirror before I walk out the door to do anything. Like I said by NO MEANS am I here to impress anyone…
I am a homebody and a family girl (who still swears she's adopted because I simply don't fit in my family) who would rather go to the park with her kids than the club with her friends. I put my family first and I am working towards an education so I can have a fantastic life for them.
My parents mean the world to me and I am so grateful for everything they gave up to raise me. They are truly amazing… everyone has there flaws and thats okay, I still love them at the end of the day.
I am always bending over backwards to change things that are beyond my control… i.e. My douche bag brother… So I have finally decide that i'm over trying to help other people who simply don't want to help them selves…
In a family of misfits (with the exception of a hand full) I am the only one trying to better my life. I am a student, an employee, an artist, a full time mother and a loving girlfriend… and at the end of the day I simply don't have time to play problem solver and try to fix everything else for everyone around me. People simply are ungrateful and unappreciative and don't deserve the help.
Some things simply are beyond my control. Thats all there is to it. I wish I could fix things… make them better again, have my best friend back… but its one of those things that are out of my reach. And I will simply end this by saying one last thing…
God grant me the serenity to
accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
